I know I don’t go on here very much anymore but sometimes you just need a place to talk where someone else can read but where they won’t talk about you or bitch about you complaining or bitching of whatever you really want to call it. While all of you from my school and my county are off enjoying your break my basically grandma just passed away form cancer. I may not have been related to her by blood but nothing will ever change how much I love her and care about her. She was the strongest, most inspirational woman i have ever met in my entire life. She made me want to be a better person just by spending time around her. If I could be like anyone when I grow up I would want to be like her. I say that as if I’m a little kid. I wish I could even be like her right now, this very second. But I would also like for someone to just be there for me. You don’t have to say your sorry, you don’t even have to mention it, just be there for me as a friend, talk to me like nothing has changed. I’m there for every single one of you so called friends every hour of every day. Hell before I could drive I’ve woken up my mom at 2 in the morning to drive me and go pick up a friend just because they were having a rough night. I lose someone close to me, who meant a lot to me and you all treat me like a fucking leper. I bend over backwards for all of you but you can’t even fucking send me a text to see if I’m okay. I love my boyfriend and he’s been there for me this whole time. I just want to see you to try and keep some sanity and be happy even for just a couple hours and he promises to see me after his lacrosse game but I wait for him to text me when he’s home and when I finally get a text and I ask if we can go do something now we can’t because his team is having a camp out and he just completely forgot. I’m sorry if I’m asking to much but I can’t even get a measly text asking if I’m okay. I’m sorry that sometime I need a friend when I’m always a friend to you guys. I’m sorry that the girl who is always happy is having a shitty week and needs someone. I’m sorry you guys are all to busy to even care that I’m a mess and just need one stinking friend. I’m sorry none of you can do that for me